Monday, July 30, 2007

So what's next?

So some of you may be wondering where I go from here.... I've finished school, I've finished my internship, what's next? My answer to that question is: absolutely nothing... for at least a month. My time in school was hectic because I was going to school and working at the same time. I literally didn't have a single day off from either school or work while school was in. Then it was straight on to the internship. This whole year, up until the end of my internship, has seemed like I've done nothing but go, go, go and it's time for a rest.

I can really tell I've been busy, I've hardly posted at all this whole year. When the blog starts falling behind, you know I'm busy! It just seems like the right time to take some time for me.

There's another thing that makes the timing of this time off very fortuitous. While I was up in Canada, my Dad called me. He called to tell me that he and my Mom had decided to separate. I won't really go into the details other than to say, he met someone else.

I've never been all that close to my father, he's always been so emotionally cut off from his children, also, I'm no longer at the age where this sort of thing would have torn my world apart. Granted, had this happened while I was in high school or younger, I probably would have totally flipped out. But in all honesty, it doesn't affect me or my life very much. My mom, however, is deeply affected by this. I want nothing more than for her to be happy. One way I can help with this is to be there for her and this time off gives me the freedom to do that. We've talked a lot about all this, there will definitely be her okay days and her not so okay days. Ultimately though, I think she'll be just fine. She has so much support and love and really, isn't that all you need?



Ok, the serious part of this post is over. Time for some knitty stuff.

I actually have quite a bit of knitting to show... or at least knitting related things. Hmmm, I suppose I should start with a project I started in Canada. I mentioned before the I couldn't finish the Print 'O the Wave stole because I basically ran out of yarn. Well, if I couldn't finish one lace project, it only seemed logical to me at the time to start a new one!
It's another Candle Flame Shawl from Knitpicks. It's one of their free patterns. The yarn I'm using is Knitpicks Shadow. It's a laceweight merino. The last time I made this pattern I used a variegated yarn and you just couldn't see the pattern as well as you can when you use a solid color. It's a solid color, but it's heathered...
There's just nothing like a good macro setting... Anyway, this picture is closer to the true color of the yarn as well. Maybe a little less bright, but still close.

It's hard to believe, but that is the only thing on the needles at the moment (aside, of course, from the unfinished Print 'O the Wave... we'll not talk about that one...) I discovered this past weekend why it's a really good idea to have a mindless project as well as an intricate project. I went camping with some friends and during the day, it was no problem working on the lace shawl.... at night however, knitting lace to the gentle, and totally unreliable, glow of the firelight was just not the best of ideas... I'm feeling a new project coming on...

7 comments:

Meg said...

It is always nice to take a break and slow down. My maternity was the first time I was able to slow down in years, and it has really made all the difference!

I am seriously smitten with your new stole. The color is amazing!

Lynne said...

Sorry to hear about your parents. I hope your mother does ok.
Aren't breaks great? You have been sooo busy and so much has happened in the last year that you need to have some time out.

Laurie said...

Good that you're taking a break at just the time your Mom will need you around.

Things always happen for a reason and I hope she comes out the other side of this whole. It sounds like she's going to be fine.

Pretty stole! Beautiful color. I hate not being able to get the colors right in a photo. Grrr.

JessaLu said...

I'm really sorry to hear about your Mom & Dad - I hope your Mom holds up okay...

jackie said...

Sorry to hear about your parents. It is good that you will be able to be around for your mom for a bit.
Your candleflame stole is beautiful! The heathered yarn is very suitable for the pattern.

Satori said...

Getting away and taking some time for yourself is wonderful and very deserved. It sounds like it's way over due too.

I'm really sorry to hear about your parents and their situation. Your mom will really appreicate your support.

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear about your parents splitting, though I guess not everyone makes it together through the long haul. Hope your mom can pick up and carry on after the initial turmoil. It's a process, not an event.

But as a man, the thing that I found most disheartening about your post was that you felt like your father was emotionally disconnected from you and your siblings. That's sad. I hope my children don't grow up feeling that way. Not sure I know how I'm doing on that score, but I hope it's better than that. There's absolutely no doubt that the world needs to raise better men, but I fear that it's not going to happen any time soon. Sigh.